Conjuring up enough mental fortitude to recall a happy place where I am at peace and I am loved.
Category: Listen
Screaming Is An Option
Screaming feels like an option. I imagine myself running into my backyard, collapsing to my knees and with fists raised in complaint, screaming. Tears would follow, dripping with the same guttural utterance of my screams. I would tuck my face in my hands and slump forward. My cry to feel alive or at least to … Continue reading Screaming Is An Option
Pause the Panic-Loop
I spotted him. A streak of bright red tucked behind branches. A male cardinal. He was the culprit that interrupted my stream of thoughts. Mind you, it was a necessary interruption. I was caught in an endless loop of worry, anger and panic. You would think that lounging in a kiddie (adult) pool in your … Continue reading Pause the Panic-Loop
Timely Messages
After five years of writing a blog and filling countless journals, I’ve discovered I am most passionate about unlocking timely messages that encourage, challenge and change my perspective. I’m talking about moments of clarity and self-discovery. This is what I love writing about! When I happen upon a timely message like spotting light poking through … Continue reading Timely Messages
Self-Care: More Than A Hobby
Self-care: I’ve heard it often enough to understand that we live in a culture where we keep too busy. Many times ‘we’ don’t even make it on our very own to-do list. Serving the demands of our agendas is more important than slowing down to allow time for introspection. It is much easier to disregard … Continue reading Self-Care: More Than A Hobby
Certainty
Worry, like a string of balloons tethered to your hands carries you far from reality. Detached from the earth below, you spend endless hours constructing scenarios that address every “What if?” You devise multiple plans - solidifying certainty and safety at all costs. Every situation controlled. Every outcome calculated. Every question answered. Nothing is unpredictable and … Continue reading Certainty
She is Past
The seal broke releasing the past. Its sentence was up and like an uninvited haunting it was making its arrival known. Wanting to hide in fear it chased me down. Like a child I hid under my blanket pretending that if I couldn’t see her, she couldn’t see me. My protective force was faulty. I … Continue reading She is Past
…but a moment
My backyard, small but perfect - a place to lounge mid-afternoon during the summer months. Two new turquoise-blue muskoka chairs make backyard lounging perfect. Everyday I would sit with my bare feet touching the grass or crosslegged on the chair studying, reflecting and writing. My studies were often interrupted by my curious little dog playfully … Continue reading …but a moment
Beneath Waters
I buried her beneath waters. A buoyant sail once purposed for adventure, shipwrecked. Drowned by currents of ‘acceptable norms’ She could no longer stay afloat. She sank. Her beauty. Her purpose. Her destiny. Gone. She was ‘put in her place’ on the ocean floor. A vessel repurposed for others. A hidden home for sea life … Continue reading Beneath Waters
Search For Connection
I was on a search for connection. I hadn’t had time to grieve the loss of my grandma or soul-search until vacation. Time away is more than indulgence in delicious foods and drinks - it’s an intentional practice of stillness, purging the mind of everything that ‘needs to be done.' I guess you could say … Continue reading Search For Connection